"If I stay in one place I lose my mind, I'm a pretty impossible lady to be with." -Sometimes I love Kimya Dawson

So think about every romantic comedy you've ever seen. The most common plotline? The best friend. Girl and guy are best friends, guy loves girl, girl rejects guy until end of movie where girl realizes true love for guy and kisses him, marries him, etc...

Well, I think I'm slowly coming to the realization that this is my life. I mean, I don't know. I can never tell. Especially since I'm so far away from home, but it's like...I spent half a year "dating" someone while at the same time basically "dating" someone else and the whole time it was just weird because...I had a boyfriend.

But it was like, here's this other person who fits perfectly, but I'm not going to do anything about it because I'm "in love."

... (<---this is called and ellipsis by the way. <:D)


Sometimes I wonder if I'm mentally insane.

^_^

It's like whatever.

And when I say "in love" I mean, I was, but I was in love with the person I thought he was. Or the person he could be, or the person he might become. I wasn't in love with the person who didn't really pay all that much attention to me.

And I mean that in the least bitchy way possible. Because like, as a friend, I really do love him, he's just got some thinkin' to do.

(^If you were reading all of that, I'm sorry.)

<:D

Well, and THEN I got jealous when someone else dated him...really jealous. And I didn't say anything because I knew it was dumb, but I did. I'm so sick of feeling like a selfish bitch all the time when in reality I'm just generally retarded and a wee bit confused. And maybe I don't like my college guy at all, but really, I'm just excited to go home and watch "Dear Reader, Wizard People" with him and listen to his really useless facts.

:]

Eh. But that does not mean friends that I have nothing to complain about.

In other news, I'm pretty sure Kelsey secretly resents me. This is why, on the internet, I am formally surrendering (<---right now that doesn't sound like a word, but I'm sticking to it) to Kelsey. I don't know if I even really want him and I don't really feel like reigning in someone I'm sure about. And I know he wants her, a lot. So. Enough of this shit.

<3

I'm supposed to be studying for meteorology. PEACE.

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